sobota, 18 lutego 2012

R.I.P. Whitney.

"Crackwhore is dead" I've read somewhere in comments under the news about Whitney Houston's death. "No one told her to take drugs, she killed herself" sounded the other. Seriously? That is all you have to say after passing one of the most amazing voices in pop music? Well, so you're a trash. Because of Whitney we have Beyonce, Katy Perry, Rihanna, Mariah Carey, Celine Dion - all these pop stars you watching half naked on the scene as they have to shine with tits and ass to cover the voice that is not enough to impress. Whitney never had to undress to impress. She could stand in a long, black dress, but when she was starting singing all eyes were looking at her. I've never seen Rihanna or some other second-class music product getting standing ovation after the performance. And that will probably never happen.

All my life I've been Whitney's fan. I remember when she recorded "When you believe" with Mariah - I watched the videos from the live performances and was so impressed of Whitney singing so natural while Mariah was almost jumping and gesticulating like crazy when she wanted to hit the highest notes. Always were #teamWHITNEY.

Because of Whitney my jeans obsession started because of her. I don't remember how old I was, but I remember seeing the video "I'm your baby tonight" and begging my Mum to buy me jeans and a leather jacket. And I got them! Yeah, I was one of these children who was dressing up and performing in front of the mirror, or better in front of the whole family and strangers that were coming to see my father who's a doctor. I guess that's why I love being in the center of attention.

Because of that "crackwhore" my childhood was beautiful. Because of her songs I started believing in a real love. Is there any person in the world that don't know Whitney's version of "I will always love you"? I don't think so. Even that her voice sounded different in the end, that she destroyed it with alcohol and drugs she still was the most talented singer that was born. She will never sing again. These days from my childhood will never come, but in my memory she was my biggest idol, just next to Michael Jackson. I do believe that talents like that will never happen again to pop music. And yes, I am gonna miss you Whitney.

środa, 8 lutego 2012

"The Block Party: Official Launch" @ East Bloc.

There are many clubs in London. Ones are good, ones are bad and overrated. I'm not a fan of Soho or the popular clubs where all bloody hipsters are masturbating over a pair of vintage jacket or my stolen studded hat. I am not a fan of places where "electro music" means new Britney's remix by David Guetta (kudos to DJ). And finally I am not a fan of places where people who are calling themselves DJs are playing from WinAmp, iPod or iTunes. Honey, let's be honest - you're a shit not a DJ and all you should do with your "talent" is get a line of cocaine and die. Bye. But there's East Bloc. A place that became my second home. Sometimes I am asking myself where am I staying more often - in my bed or in that club? And the answer is - I don't know. As I am a party monster I prefer a good dance and some sweat instead of the pillow and sweet dreams. I don't mid kissing hot guys too. But bitches are cheeky - they're sharing their tongues and mouths and they are never calling you again. Yeah, twats.

On Sunday I went to "The Block Party: Official Launch". The whole idea was born in Mark-Ashley Dupé's head who's already the host of super popular Dupés Den party in East Bloc. To be honest, I am not a fan of parties on Sunday. After every Friday and Saturday night I am praying to God to kill me instead of sending me to another party that will last till the early morning. But I promised to myself that I will go and write a review. So I stayed at home on Saturday night and cumulated my energy for Sunday (I was sleeping the whole day after the after party that lasted till, I don't remember, 12pm?). But then a suprise was waiting for me. All my friends were busy, preparing something for work or uni or just having sex. As I'm a single guy I had no excuses. I had to dress up and go, hoping I won't regret it. And as a single guy I was hoping I will maybe meet someone interesting there so my Valentine won't be called "Table for one, please".

East Bloc is a place where you can feel totally safe. The security is better than a condom. Never breaks. Never leaks. If something is going wrong - the guy or a girl is being taken out, and bye, so long, goodbye, don't cry. Boys in a cloakroom are my favourite couple, but don't be rude to them - they may bite you. Thank God they are not fans of my veins and blood and I can always get in front of the line to leave my jacket (Mark & George - thank you for being so understanding that I "have to go in because I need to pee immediately!"). Anyway, let's talk about the party. Sunday's party was hosted by: Mark-Ashley Dupé (mentioned before), Richard Logins (who's an amazing hunk), Jake Cook (who became single - so watch him) and Joelle Hyland, Kwame Suaavve. One of my friends who came to East Bloc for the first time in his life said: "OMG so all the hot guys are coming here! And I was spending all my time in Vauxhall before - not anymore!". But the truth is that the club is full of hotties! Seriously, trust me - all the hot guys are coming to East Bloc. Avantgarde ones, East Londoners, club kids, hunks, even guys like me who lives in Camden love the atmosphere of the place. Because it's just absolutely good. But enough of rimming. Time to say something about the music. I think I haven't heard better mix of 90's, R'n'B and hip hop in ages. I swear. DJs made me cum. I was this close to get my cock out and cum on the dancefloor. There were three of them in the main room: Kartel Brown (Dupés Den/Bootylicious), Jeffrey Hinton (Fruit Machine/Joiners Arms), Miguel Dare (Dupés Den/DanceDanceDance) and two in the BOY London's room: Sick Bwoy and Gareth Emmett. When it comes to BOY London boys I don't think there's a need of introducing them - just go to and order some clothes as the beats they are playing are as good as their designs. That night my heart (and my bootey) was stolen by Kartel Brown. I am sorry, I have to admit that it was one of the best parties ever. I do regret it was so short (finished at 4.30). If I could compare his set to sex I'd say it was one of my best shags ever. He played everything I was expecting from 90's r'n'b party - from Janet to Destiny's Child and in the end he made me crazy with my top banger by Azealia Banks "212". I've heard many DJs in my life, as I've been working for DJ Magazine for four years and I've met some super stars. But that guy has a huge talent. And he knows how to rock your mind. And, psst, he's fucking hot, too. Kartel if you're reading that - skip that part. NOW. Or get yourself a drink.

This is my first review of the party here. And I feel a little bit guilty that I didn't write anything bad about the party. But why should I when it was just perfect? It was just like L'Oreal's add. It was worth going there, getting sweaty and having couples of drinks. It was worth spending Sunday with people instead of staying at home and watching some fucked up romantic movies and ordering a double-cheese pizza. I only regret one thing: that everyone had to go to work in the morning and I couldn't find any after party that will kill me and remind me that it's Monday again and it's time to work. But hey, after Monday and Tuesday, even the calendar is saying W T F. So boys and girls, pack your things, dress like tomorrow is your last day and come to Sunday's party in East Bloc next time. If I could I'd press "Like" on the Facebook right now. And yes, I kissed a hottie I've met there and I liked it. Your turn.

217 City Road, EC1V 1JN London, United Kingdom

sobota, 28 stycznia 2012

TO LOVE AND TO BE LOVED IN RETURN - Zuzanna Buchwald and Chris Ladewig for IDOLL Magazine #3.


There was a boy who fell in love and his heart was broken. There was a girl who fell in love and was loved in return. No, the boy is not a drama writer, and the girl is not a courtisane and it's not a "Moulin Rouge" movie. It has happened for real and the girl and the boy are both models. Two beautiful people who are sharing with me their opinions about love. What is love? For ones it's money. For second ones it's career. But for all of us it's a magnificent feeling we keep looking around for our whole lives. Amy Winehouse could probably say: Hi, my name is Amy and I am a love-aholic. She kept looking for love all her life. The way she loved was destroying. They say drugs killed her. I don't think so. She died because of love. As it may be a beautiful feeling as much as a terrible one, that puts us into addictions and makes a fear of being alone the biggest demon you can imagine. We are all fighting with this demon. Nobody wants to be lonely. But aren't we all really lonely? In this run for success, money and career? Aren't we all afraid of dying in our own bed alone without anyone holding our hand? I think we do.

My love life is like a rollercoaster. I am falling in love everyday, to stop feeling it the next day. I am falling in love with every one night stand just to wake up in the morning and praying to God: Oh please, wake up and go home, I wanna be alone. Do I believe in love? I do. I hope it will hit me like a tube one day and slice me in the pieces. Because for me the real love hurts. It hurts so much that you wanna keep hurting till the end of your life. I loved once, maybe twice. But I do remember the feeling when I loved. I wanted to rip off my skin to be closer to my beloved, I wanted to breathe the air they were breathing out and after break ups I was becoming Toni Braxton singing "I hate love" praying at the same moment to find a new one as soon as possible. Because I am a love desperate.

Sit down, play your favourite music album and read the interview with Zuzanna Buchwald, one of my favourite female model and Chris Ladewig, a guy to die for. We're talking about love, committment and hearbreaks. And we all wish to end up like Anja Rubik and Sasha Knezevic - with a fairytale wedding and living happily ever after.

IDOLL: What is love?

Chris Ladewig: Love is life-changing, it's the connecting of our heart and souls to a point where an existence without your loved one is unbearable. Love is the want, the desire to be with another person, to share your life, your dreams, your passions, your time with that person. Love is seeing that person in a way no other does. When that person becomes more beautiful with each passing moment, seeing their inner beauty radiate outwardly. being comfortable, being yourself around a person. Having a passion that never dies. Love is when general obligations become simple pleasures. The core of love is universal. It can't really be explained. It's a feeling, that only you know... Love is unmistakeable.

Zuzanna Buchwald: Respect, intimacy, trust, attraction... I'm in the process of finding out more. My grandfather always says : "Love is an itch of the heart that you can not scratch"- cheesy but true.

IDOLL: What's the difference between love and romance?

Chris: Are they different? Isn't most love preceeded by some sort of romance?

Zuzanna: Romance is temporary, love is forever.

Chris: If you are talking about a fling. thats different. Flings generally have an expiry date. Fun without the serious commitment, generally not involving love. Where love is limitless... no time frame for love... it's seeing yourself with a person for the forseeable future... A going concern.

Zuzanna: Romance is a fleeing moment while love is much more complex. Romance for me is only with a guy, while love is something I give to family members, good friends, my dog...

IDOLL: Do you think men can love and it will be a pure love or they are just into romances? You know what they say, men only care about sex...

Zuzanna: I like to believe that there are men mature enough for true love. In my opinion they have to get fed up with romances before they long for true, unconditional love.

IDOLL: That's kinda Carrie Bradshaw's way of thinking but in the end she found her true love.

Chris: Of course men can love (laughs)! Depends what you are looking for. Many times these romances manifest into real love...

IDOLL: Will you agree that men think with dick? But then what about women? (laughs)

Zuzanna: I would, but women often think through a prism of their sexuality as well. I know many women more sex-oriented than their partners.

Chris: Everyone is different. Sure you get people whose lives are led by a full-on frontal crotch attack, a phallic compass if you may (laughs) considering the world we live in, with everything being driven by sex (sex sells, etc).. It would seem the masses are led by it. But remember, sex is just one piece of a very large pie. So I think it's a media induced phenomenom. But i believe things are changing though, the stereotypical roles are being reversed to some extent, where men were once leading with their "second heads", it seems women are taking on more of this role, being lead purely by their physical desires.

IDOLL: What is more important? The look or the brain? I have to say that the look is the most important for me but I am a love idiot and always falling for a pretty face - regretting it later.

Zuzanna: I wanted and found both.

IDOLL: Lucky you!

Zuzanna: Looks-if you are looking for a casual relationship. A good combination of looks and intelligence-if you want partnership. I get bored with pretty boys than have nothing to say.

Chris: If a girl can rock a blue steel, I'm sold (laughs). I'm joking. I once had an argument with a girl, who was very open about her dating with men purely for their money. She didn't care how they looked like or the type of person they were. If they bought her shit, she was happy. I made a suggestion of her shallowness. Then she critisized me for my shallowness for wanting certain things in a girl: intelligence, wit, humour, beauty, playfulness, maturity, a good heart...

IDOLL: Oh, so you mean she was a “gift-sweetheart”. Maybe she should start dating a Santa Clause?

Chris: We all want different things. and we all pursue those things which make us each as individuals happy. But personally, i need the complete package... and then some.

IDOLL: Are you in a relationship at the moment?

Chris: No, I'm not.

Zuzanna: Yes, for 3 years now.

IDOLL: So first you, lucky girl. Who's the guy?

Zuzanna: My boyfriend is a hot, smart and amazing Brazilian man. We met each other in a club in New York. I was a little drunk and he was very caring from the beginning. We started talking about art, Brazilian berry acai, universities and nightlife in New York. Soon after that we were inseparable.

IDOLL: And what about you Chris? Why are you single?

Chris: I'm single because my young girl who I loved recently decided her freedom was more important than our relationship. No hard feelings. What we had was truly amazing. We've made some awesome memories and we got to experience each other. Have to be grateful for that. Besides, we all have our paths to lead. My path is about changing lives.

IDOLL: People say it's hard to be in a relationship when you're a model. Travels all around the world, beautiful people around - it all makes you wanna cheat on your beloved!

Chris: Well there is no doubt that this industry is riddled with promiscuity and people cheating on bfs/gfs. But then again, there is just as much infidelity in the rest of the world. It depends on entirely on the person.

Zuzanna: I used to be more tempted with beautiful boys during my work trips.

Chris: I've never cheated on a girlfriend and never will. It's just not who i am.

IDOLL: So you're just like me. But then again – everyone were cheating on me!

Chris: Considering the travelling lifestyle of a model, it may be easier... You may be away from your partner, your family, friends, then you meet someone, you connect in this forced intimacy situation and then it happens. So if loyalty isn't high on your priority list, being single would be better.

Zuzanna: You don't have to travel anywhere if you want to cheat. You can do it with a neighbor while your girlfriend/boyfriend is asleep. It doesn't have to be a modeling trip. In New York where I live I am surrounded with beautiful and successful people but if you love someone,you don't cheat. Period.

Chris: Like I said, it depends who you are, what you want. When I love someone I don't really want any other. Like Rihanna says, "make them feel like the only girl in the world". So for me it iseasy. It is not so much being a model, rather the distance which makes it hard.

IDOLL: I can bet many people tried to get your attention or flirt with you. The best and the worst flirt situations ever?

Chris: (Laughs) I'm not so sure about that.. I think girls get a lot more action on that front than guys do. It's just the way it is. There have been some interesting situations. Nothing really comes to mind regarding a worse situation. I actually find the attention levels and flirting increase when people realise I'm a photographer. It's all just a bit of harmless fun at the end of the day.

Zuzanna: There was a lot of fun flirt situations. One of the most memorable ones was getting stuck at the airport in Palm Springs with an extremely attractive male model. Our flight to New York was delayed and we decided to wait in a bar. I was underaged back then and he got me completely drunk. I was also in a relationship at the time, but a year later, when I was single, we met again and hooked up. The least pleasant situation was with a quite famous actor. We met at a theatre and I was flattered when he asked me out, but he was so self-centered and weird that it ended up being the worse date ever.

IDOLL: Okay, you both said you're not into cheating so let me ask you something. Would you consider a 3-some if your partner would propose it? Or would you rather pick 1 on 1 option?

Chris: No idea! It would be very very circumstantial. Have to cross that bridge when I get there.

Zuzanna: Yes, I would consider.

IDOLL: You've changed since I met you at the beginning of your career (laughs). Good girl went bad?

Zuzanna: I'm rather open and adventurous.

IDOLL: Are u sexually active when you're in a long-term-relationship?

Chris: I'm saving myself for when I'm married. (Laughs) Just kiddin.

Zuzanna: Active and monogamous.

IDOLL: What is the key to a successful relationship?

Zuzanna: I don't know if there is one. Every relationship is different and its happiness is based on the needs of the couple. In my case: common interests, the ability of having fun together, mutual understanding (despite the cultural differences), mutual (I hope) attraction, support that we give each other are surely some of the things that keep us together.

Chris: Wanting the same things. Having similar perspectives on life and what you want from it. Wanting to be with each other. That "want" is important.

IDOLL: Yeah but it doesn' work sometimes.

Chris: Passion! Romance, feeling the love. The desire to be with your loved one. And communication is key! each giving 100%. There must be balance in the relationship and complete trust and honesty. Your partner needs to be your best friend.

IDOLL: If you could pick - a good one night stands everyday or a long-term-partner, what would you chose?

Zuzanna: Long term relationship. Healthier. More interesting and much more of a challenge.

Chris: I'm quite old school. I fully believe in having a certain exclusivity, and I am a hopeless romantic, so long term life partner for sure!! Freedom is happiness, but happiness is best shared so share your freedom with someone you love. Pure true love is like the cherry on the cake of life. Everything is just that little bit better. Life is just more meaningful.

IDOLL: The worst break up ever?

Chris: Maybe this last one, because I loved the girl with all my heart, thought she was "the one". And for that all be suddenly taken away and having no control over it. it hurt. It wasn't a nasty breakup, there was no reason for it to be, we just wanted different things. Now, life continues. You can't control situations but you can control how you think about them.

Zuzanna: Every break up is hard, I really can't pick one. I am very emotional and I get attached to people quickly, so I suffer almost every time.

Chris: Happiness is a choice! Sometimes you just gotta return the book to the library and take out another one. Plenty of interesting books out there to read.

IDOLL: Yeah, sea is full of fish and wood is full of trees. So that will be the last question. Do you believe in love at first sight?

Zuzanna: As a big romantic I would like to believe in one. I know that sometimes you just know that someone is a great person by looking at them, but love, in that case, is too big of a word.

Chris: No, I don't believe in love at first sight. But I believe in chemistry and that "connection"- the spark which makes a person stand out to the rest, which ultimately could lead to love.

Text: Bartek Fetysz Rytkowski

Photos: models's archives